So many times I feel like I'm behind in blogging, and just want to get updates of the boys posted before too much time passes. But today, it is just time to sit for a little bit and enjoy life. Well, for a few minutes at least! =) Much of my life is spent on the move, doing things quickly, planning for what's ahead, making sure I've thought of everything, etc, etc, etc. I don't take enough time just to sit. To relax. To take deep breaths. To really think about me. Don't get me wrong... I love every single aspect of being at home and my life being completely devoted to my little guys and my big guy, and I wouldn't have it any other way. But I am also realizing lately how fast life is flying by! My boys are almost 15 months old, and it feels like it has gone by in a flash! It scares me a bit, because I know I'm going to blink a few more times, and they are going to be all grown up!
The other day my mom and I were talking to a lady on our plane to California who is also a stay at home mom of a precious little girl (who was very entertaining to the boys as we flew!). My mom asked her if she felt like life was flying by, and to my surprise, she said, "No, not really. I am privileged to get to stay home with her, so we spend a lot of time together, and I really feel like I've gotten to enjoy each moment." (Or something pretty close to that!) Her response shocked me a bit, since mine would have been, "Yes, it's flying by, but I'm loving every second!" The more I've pondered her response, the more I've realized how much I just need to slow myself down and truly and fully enjoy each moment. I really feel like I have, but I think I can take enjoying my boys to a new level. I don't want to look back in a few years and feel like these times were a blur because I was trying to do and accomplish so much. Not that I feel the need to be any kind of supermom, but I think just my type A, do it all kind of personality lends itself super easily to rushing through life, just to get it done, and done well. I want to be aware of the fact that life will get done, but my boys won't stay this little forever, or even for another month!
I'm so incredibly thankful and blessed beyond words for my two miracles! Each and every day it hits me how lucky I am to be their mommy, that God has answered my prayers. Today when I stopped at Jonathan's grave for a couple minutes, I realized again how lucky I am to have these boys in my arms, that I get to raise them, and that they are so healthy. I know they would have loved having their older brother here with them on Earth to play with, and I wish I was raising 3 boys right now, but as they grow up, I'm going to make sure they know how special our family is and that they are lucky to have a big brother in Heaven watching out for them!
So I guess all this is to say that I am making a Thanksgiving Resolution (instead of a New Year's). I am going to do my very best to slow down, to really take in each moment, to truly appreciate every bit of time with my family, because it is gone too soon! Especially in this holiday season, where there seems to be a never-ending list of to-dos! I'm thankful that God has given me my family: our immediate families, our parents, our siblings, and our extended families too! I don't want to miss any of the special times because I'm rushing through, trying to get life done. Each moment of life is just too important!
I'm not sure why all this came out today, but I feel like this blog is so helpful to me in sorting out my thoughts... or at least it used to be before the boys came along! =) I hope you all have a wonderful and safe Thanksgiving, and that you are able to enjoy each moment with family and friends! Any of you want to join in on my Thanksgiving Resolution? =)
And because there can't be a blog without at least one picture, here are two!
|Like in the picture on the header, the slide (turned upside down) is the boys new favorite place to play!!|
Jack on left in this photo
|My mom-mobile... with our family emblems that my dad got me! Note what is on Justin's shirt!|
Can't wait for our trip to Denver! Well, maybe not the 13 hour drive!