August 31, 2010
So far, last night and today have been my best day yet since I've been here! The bleeding is just about stopped, my water hasn't broken, my cervix is seeming to hold tight, and I haven't had any recorded contractions since yesterday morning! Praise Jesus!
Yesterday started off so hard, but ended up being a great day. I just have the best doctors, here at the hospital, and other ones I've been under the care of! My dad sent an email to Dr. Haney (my TAC dr in Chicago), and in about an hour, he was calling me. Amazing! We spoke for about 35 minutes, then he called my MFM Dr. Z (my high risk doctor here), and then called me back! I have never had such wonderful experiences with doctors taking so much time and one-on-one amazing care before. We are all still not exactly sure what has really happened...it does look like the TAC isn't doing what it is supposed to do, but we really don't know if it broke, came untied, was weak, etc. Dr. Haney is so wanting to learn everything we can from what is happening, so if there need to be changes is TAC procedures in the future, they can be made. He is continually studying, adapting, and making these TACs the best they can possibly be for women with incompetent cervix. We are mulling all sorts of possibilities within my own body that could explain what is going on, so hopefully, down the road, we can figure out some things! I still am a whole-hearted proponent of the TAC...even if we find out that mine has 'failed' to stay in permanently.
Justin, my mom, my dad, and I met with the OB doctor here last night, and I can't even begin to tell you how encouraged we all were. We have a great plan in place for when things start happening...the babies are #1 priority, and by careful monitoring, they will determine the speed at which the c-section takes place. They are all completely understanding of my fears, my history, and my SUPER unusual situation. I feel so comfortable being under their care (there are 7 doctors who rotate through my care). Seems crazy with so many people involved, but I love it because it means that there is someone here 100% of the time to take care of my boys and me!!
So all these details to say that I'm so very encouraged. Whenever these boys come, they are going to be in great hands, and however long they stay inside of me, they are in great hands! The prayers and love of people all around the world is giving us all the strength to continue on with peace!!
Phillipians 4:6-7 was such a lifeline to us when we were going through everything with Jonathan, and God brought it to us again twice yesterday...from completely different people who definitely hadn't talked to each other. God is so good, and He is in control!!
"Don't worry about anything; instead pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. Then you will experience God's peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus."
August 30, 2010
August 29, 2010
August 27, 2010
But, we are pretty much here in the hospital for the long haul. They moved me from a labor and delivery room to the high-risk ob floor, and it really isn’t bad. Would you believe it…they even allow people to bring up their pets for 2-hour stretches at a time! So, starting next week, Betsy can come and visit her mommy! How cool is that? The nurses and doctors are wonderful…making me feel so comfortable, and are very encouraging to me to make myself as much at home as possible! I even have a little fridge in my room!
The neonatologist came and spoke with us tonight as well—what a wonderful doctor!!! He reinforced the fact that the boys being over 28 weeks is a GREAT thing! Justin and I were so happy to get to have this talk with him right away. He even said that if we’d like to go on a tour of the NICU, we are more than welcome to! This hospital definitely is where we want to be for our boys…the NICU is great, and no matter what amount of time they have to be here, they are going to be in the best hands. We just believe that being here on bed rest will allow me to go all the way, and they won’t have to even see the NICU!
I did have a little breakdown after the doctor came back this afternoon and said that I was here for the duration. My hubby just held me, and reminded me that this is just the best for all of us. I know that, and I’m so glad to be here too. But, I think the thing that made me cry, was that my shower was supposed to be tomorrow. My parents had gotten everything ready at their house, and people were even starting to arrive. Just a little thing, but made me sad.
BUT… thanks to today’s technology, and a wonderful friend letting us borrow their MacBook, I’m going to get to ichat in to my own shower tomorrow morning! So the shower is still on! God is so good…even taking care of little details like that for me!
Thanks (again and again!) for all your continued prayers…and I’m sure I’ll be checking in regularly from my new little home…Room 353 at Plano Presby!
August 26, 2010
August 25, 2010
As of 12:30pm, I'm back at home. My high risk doctor was actually able to come in earlier this morning that we expected and do a scan. The babies look great, my cervix still looks long and closed, and he doesn't think my placenta is bleeding. He thinks the bleeding was coming from the lowest part of the cervix, which is usually typical and pretty sensitive in pregnancy. He was completely okay with me heading back home, since all looks good, but says if there is any more bleeding, just to come back and be checked. He says if I feel like I get to a point where I'm going back and forth too much, he is would at that point want me to stay in hospital. He just doesn't like to put people in for good too early.
I really feel okay about coming back home. As nice as it is to be on the monitor, and see that there were no contractions, I know I'll be okay at home too. If we need to go back and stay, we will! Tomorrow is 28 weeks, and that is a huge milestone in development for the boys. The boys, according to my doctor, are already big, and combined with a shared placenta, lots of fluid, I feel a lot of normal pressure. That combined with Jack's head down, and Will's little bootie on my cervix, I think I'm just bound to feel more and more uncomfortable from here on out! But as long as there's no bleeding, and they are continuing to grow, it will all be good!
Thanks for your continued prayers, and I'm hoping that from here on out, my blogs are just going to be boring reports of the same ol' same ol'!!
August 24, 2010
It will be a tough adjustment actually being here, yet not being able to do anything, but...it will all be worth it when they are born big, healthy, and strong...months from now!!!
August 23, 2010
We definitely have ended up having a great weekend…I know that sounds so strange to say on a blog I’m typing from the hospital because of pre-term contractions, but God has had his hand in every detail!!
For me, this weekend has been great because know I feel a lot more confident of quite a few things…
~My husband and my parents are the best! Justin is my rock, and gave me that strength to make a smart choice to come in on Saturday morning. I don’t know why I was waffling…I think, deep down, I didn’t want to be reliving the past. But thank Jesus, we are in a completely different situation here, and the boys are going to be just fine! We needed to be here, and he got me here! My parents have been such a help to us as well—and have taken so much stress off Justin as he has to keep working! My mom has spent 2 nights with me at the hospital (she is seriously a hospital assistant extraordinaire after all the time she has spent with my gram in the hospital this year) and is just so wonderful to have nearby for help. My dad has been a great too—he’s brought us food, sat with me here so I didn’t have to be alone, and they both are planning on being there for me all the time once I’m at home on bed rest! I’m so very blessed to have them all!
~I now feel like I have a pretty good handle on what a contraction feels like. Since I never felt them with Jonathan before my cervix opened, I wasn’t quite sure what they felt like. Also, I now know that even though I have a very full tummy of two active baby boys (I’m full term singleton size according to my doctor), I have a much better feel of an actual contraction vs them just moving. I got to see the contractions on the screen at the same time I was feeling them, so that helps me out.
~We have AMAZING doctors caring for us. Even the ones we just met here in the hospital have been incredible, and I feel confident that even if these babies had to come earlier that we want them too, we are all in the best hands possible!
~God has (again!) brought wonderful nurses into our life when we needed them during scary times. My day nurse, Amanda, was with me every day that I have been here…usually unheard of in hospital schedules! She added such calm to the early scary times, and has been a wonderful resource! I think I’ve made a new friend—isn’t God good? =)
There is so much more good that has come out of this…
And honestly, I’m so excited to just get the next (hopefully) 8+ weeks just focusing completely on my baby boys! They’re depending on me to stay calm, help them grow, and keep them inside as long as possible…and I can’t think of a better job! The years after this, for the rest of my life, I’m sure will not ever be this calm again, so I’m going to enjoy each and every moment!
Thank you so much for your prayers…I can’t begin to express how much they have worked, and are still working! I think God even made the magnesium sulfate do its job without giving me hardly any of the usual nasty side effects! Just about every doctor and nurse that saw me this weekend couldn’t believe that I was really on mag! My nurse said she even checked the expiration date on it just to make sure it wasn’t expired, since I was doing so well! How funny is that? And how just like God?!
I’m off to get a quick shower—heavenly—and then off to bed! Can’t wait to give you more great updates!
I will post more later tonight with how it's all going and more details!! Thanks for all the continued prayers!!
August 22, 2010
The boys are still hanging out in their cozy nest, happy as clams!! They gave some of the nurses a run for their money when they were trying to trace their heartrates…I guess already doing the twin tag team thing!! The poor nurses could find one or the other, or sometimes, the boys were close enough to each other where their were registering as the same for both. They also moved away into each other’s side, just to try to escape the monitors! Too funny! But they’re doing great, and that makes us happy!
We’ll continue updating throughout the week…thanks for your continued prayers!
August 21, 2010
Last night I had a really hard time sleeping, I wasn't sure if I was having contractions. My back was really hurting, and that really worried me since that was one big symptom I had two years ago with Jonathan. But no bleeding, leaking fluid, so I wasn't sure what was going on. I just didn't know if it was all in my head, and all of these feelings were normal at 27 weeks with twins.
By four, I was out in the living room, trying to get comfy, and Justin came out. He was obviously worried, saw that i was worried, and was the smart one and said, "Let's go. It will at least put your mind at ease." So we went off to the hospital at 5:45, and they were able to hook me up to the monitors right away and see that my stinking uterus was indeed having some contractions and uterine irritations. The boys' heartbeats looked and sounded great, though. They contacted my high risk doctor, and he came by around 1:30. He did an ultrasound, and my cervix and TAC are long, closed, and holding well. The boys look great, but his big concern is that with a TAC, contractions that don't stop and only get worse could lead to a ruptured uterus. Not a good thing at all, but he doesn't think my contractions are that strong yet. He just wants them to stop.
So...I'm laying here in a hospital bed, with a 48 hour magnesium sulfate drip to try to stop the contractions. He also, as a precaution, is giving me 2 steroid shots to help mature their lungs, just in case they have to be delivered early. We are praying that the mag will do the trick, and the boys will stay cozy and warm and grow for many more weeks! The doctor said even making it to 28 weeks (5 days from now) makes a huge difference. But that is still too early in this Mommy's mind.
Would you please lift us all up in prayer? Pray that the contractions stop. Pray that the boys are able to stay inside for many more weeks. Pray for Justin and I to be strong through this hurdle...this kind of Deja vu isn't fun. :-( Praise God that we have amazing doctors, amazing care, and a great NICU nearby, should we need it!
And it looks like I made it to bed rest! Maybe here in the hospital, or maybe at home. I'll do whatever it takes to give these boys the most time they need to develop! But if anyone has any good ideas or tips for bed rest activities, send them my way! :-)
August 18, 2010
It says Twin A, but she labeled it wrong and it really is Will...during this one, he was actually opening his eye! Just amazing!!!
August 16, 2010
August 12, 2010
How far along?
How big are the babies?
"Your baby may weigh about 2 pounds now and is 14 inches in length. To support the baby's growing body, the spine is getting stronger and more supple. Though no longer than the span of the average adult hand, it is now made up of 150 joints, 33 rings, and some 1,000 ligaments. Air sacs in the lungs form now. Lungs begin to secrete a greasy substance called surfactant. Without surfactant the fetal lungs would stick together and couldn't expand after the baby is born. Although they've been sealed shut for the last few months, your baby's eyes are opening and beginning to blink this week. Retinas begin to form. Brain wave activity for hearing and sight begins to be detectable. Fetal brain scans show response to touch. If you shine a light on your abdomen, your baby will turn his head, which according to researchers, means his optic nerve is working."
So amazing to us that all that is going on inside of me! Justin and I can hardly wait to test out the flashlight and see if they move!
Total weight gain/loss?
I've kind of stayed the same this week...depending on which scale I use, I've gained between 18-20 pounds.
43 1/2 inches
I've been starting to wake up in the middle of the night, or early, and not be able to go back to sleep. It's not that I'm super uncomfortable or anything, but I just can't sleep! Strange!
Best moment this week?
I was playing music to them with some cool belly headphones that I have, and they reacted to it! Right when I put them on, they started moving for a few minutes!! So cool! They like Delirious, and also Baby Einstein's classical music! Going to try out some more great CDs we have!
I've been loving feeling the rolling type movements! Instead of just the taps/kicks, Will has been seeming to make longer, rolling-type movements. It almost feels like he is riding a bicycle in there or running...Justin said, "Aww...my little triathlete!" Too cute!
I've been feeling a TON of movement from Will on my left side this week, and according to a quick ultrasound we had this week, he has totally crammed himself over into Jack's space...so much so that Jack is curled into a ball way down low on my left side! So low that they had a hard time getting low enough to see him by ultrasound!! (If you look at my belly pictures above, you can see that my stomach is really heavy and kind of hanging down!) After a little talking to from his mommy, I think Will has started to go back to his side a little bit today...I'm feeling Jack moving more so I think he must have a little bit more space! =) Poor little guy!!
Nothing major...just love anything with bread. But doing my best to make sure I'm getting lots of protein!
Belly button--in or out?
Still in, but not by too much!
What am I looking forward to?
My brother is coming to town tomorrow to see my belly, and that will be a lot of fun! Also, my first shower is on Saturday!! I can hardly wait!!
We are on the 10 week countdown (making it to 36 weeks)! It seems incredible that we could really be this close to meeting the boys! I hope we really are more like on the 11-12 week countdown for their development-sake! 10 weeks just seems like it's right around the corner!!
I made a photo slideshow of my belly shots up to this week...amazing how much my tummy has grown! I'll keep adding to this each week, because I'm sure I still have a lot of growing to do!! Way to go, baby boys!!
And Happy, Happy Birthday to my sweet friend, Amy!! I hope you have a great day today! Love you!
August 9, 2010
August 6, 2010
August 5, 2010
He finally gave us (almost) a little profile shot, and was touching his knee to his nose! He definitely gets his flexibility from his daddy!!