March 5, 2010

Reporting in...

So you'd think that since I have nothing to do but lay around in my bed, that there would have been all sorts of blog posts from the last 3 days! Nope! But, amazingly enough, I filled up my days! I've read books, watched some movies, watched some tv, and just vegged! My Betsy has definitely kept me company these past few days, enjoying her bedrest too! My dad has been my lunch buddy each day, and a wonderful friend even brought over a delicious dinner last night! Thanks Michelle!

The last couple of days I have been completely amazed by the love and support of complete strangers, my "lurkers"! I know a lot of people in my real life who read my blog, but the amount of love and prayers, emails and comments I'm getting from people I've never met is absolutely wonderful! I love hearing from those who I don't know, but have been following my life! (Crazy to think that anyone would even be interested in my little old life!) How amazing it is to me that through this blog, I am able to connect with people from all over the world--literally! I'm so glad I live today with this technology available! I know it isn't reality to think I will get to meet all of you, but I would love to actually meet you someday!

I was reading on a blog of a fellow mommy of babies in heaven (Love you Marie!) how much the blogging world has meant to her in this "new" life. The new life being the time after we lost our babies. I completely agree with her, and actually can look back at this past year and a half as an amazing blessing. I honestly know that my reaction, or even my life for that matter, would not be what it is today, without the support from other people who have experienced the trials of infertility, the heartbreak of losing your babies, or even from those who have lifted me up in prayer through these times. I honestly feel, through all of these experiences, that the love and support of my family, my friends, and my 'in-the-computer' friends, God has restored to me true joy. Right after we lost Jonathan, I didn't feel happiness--my heart was breaking--but I asked God to give me joy again. I really feel like He has, and I'm so thankful! And much of it has to do from the support and prayers from you all!

Okay, so I guess I'm rambling a bit today. =) I've had too much time just laying here, without anything going on, to ponder. I just wanted to say thank you so very much!



...Off to another day of being lazy, like a princess perched on a bunch of pillows with my dog by my side...hope you can do something exciting for me today!

And, if you are a lurker (hate that word, but I'm one too on many amazing women's blogs!), drop me a comment. I'd love to hear who you are!

Have a wonderful Friday!!

24 comments:

Taryn said...

Oh I'm so sorry I am behind with your updates! I was so happy to hear about all that is going on! Austin was a "hatching" embryo as well. I am praying for BIG, BIG news and whatever is God's will! I will keep praying!

Lindsay said...

Hi Alyson, I'm a lurker! :) I sometimes click on your blog from Michelle & Brandon's blog to see what's going on in other people's worlds. Everytime I read your posts, I love how open & honest you are, and your faith is such an inspiration. I know HE will bless you with another sweet baby, and I can't wait to read the post when your test is positive! Just wanted to say hi and let you know I enoy reading your blog!

Lauren said...

Hey Aly! This is Lauren Spencer Cook...I guess I have been one of those "lurkers" over the past few weeks, even though we are friends from ORU days! I had no idea you had gone through what you've gone through, but I must say, you are AMAZING! Though my experience will never compare to yours, I somewhat can empathize with you. Mikel and I had a miscarriage about 2 years ago that was after a year of trying to get pregnant. Soon after the miscarriage, we conceived again and now have a little girl, named Kaydence Hope, that just turned one last week. All I can say is, there is nothing that compares to the despair of not being able to get pregnant. During that dark time after miscarrying, I remember The Holy Spirit speaking to me and leading me to the scripture in Psalm 27 that says, "I would have lost hope (heart), unless I had believed that I would see the goodness of the lord in the land of the living.". In that moment after reading that scripture, I felt like God was saying, "Lauren, your body IS the Land Of The Living, and you WILL see my goodness in it!" From that moment on, I began to speak that scripture over my life, my body, and my womb. A few months later we conceived Kaydence! All that to say, I have been speaking and praying that scripture over you since I started reading your blog a few weeks ago. I know your circumstances are way different from mine, but Our God is the same Big God who shows no partiality! I love you and am believing that we are going to see God's "goodness" in your womb next week! I'd love to come see you sometime...we still live in McKinney! It's a shame we haven't connected sooner!!!

Jake & Emmie said...

I am most definitely a lurker! I a friend of a friend of Amy W. and found your blog through hers. I want you to know that even know we don't actually know each other, you are constantly in my thoughts and prayers! I am constantly inspired by your faith and know that God will continue to use you to bless and inspire so many people. I am so excited to see how His plan unfolds for you guys! Please know that we are praying for you always!
Jenn

WaitingandHoping said...

Hey! I confess-I've been a lurker since you lost Jonathan. I too have been inspired and encouraged by your hope, patience, and joy even in the midst of deep sorrow. My husband and I have been going through infertility for over 5 years and I had a chemical pregnancy in May 2008 after our first round of IVF. I still don't think I'm over it and neither is my husband. We don't think we can try again either--our hope is gone. I had 19 eggs and none of them were good quality and we lost almost all of them....they were able to transfer 2, but we had none left over. Anyways, like I said, I've been reading your blog on my school computer (i'm a music teacher) and it has blessed me. I have prayed for you and feel so much hope for you and this FET! Thanks for blogging! I admire you greatly!
Susan

P.S. Betsy is precious! I love it when she has bows in her hair!

Marie W said...

Love you too Alyson! I am glad you are "living it up" (you better stay down!) for the next couple of days. I am praying so hard and believing God for you and your little miracle to come. You have lots of will power though, I would be POAS every day even with the "trigger" still in my system.

Praying, praying, praying!

2Erica2 said...

I just want to say that I wish you luck! I went through IVF for several cycles before being blessed with my beautiful Amelia. Amazingly, after all of our struggles, three months after she was born, we got pregnant. Miracles happen every day and I look forward to hearing of yours soon!

Anonymous said...

Hi Alyson! I am one of your lurkers! I hate that word too, LOL! I have a blog but have actually not blogged since 2008! Even I can't believe it. I still love to read other blogs though.
I cannot say that I know what you have been through/are going through. I have 3 boys, Jacob-10, Nathan-7 and Caden-5. I am a nurse, although I quit working to be a SAHM in 2006. I live in Upstate NY and wish I lived closer to you because I would LOVE to meet you!
You amaze me with your strength! I check up on your blog often & look forward to updates. You & Justin are in my thoughts & prayers!

Nicole in NY

Katie Grant said...

Hi Alyson, I am a lurker as well! I am a friend of Michelle and Brandon Harmon and clicked on your blog months ago and just thought you were such a sweet person with such an inspiring story. I prayed for you when you had your IVF and have ever since that you and your husband will be blessed with a beautiful baby! I have an 8 month old precious daughter named Allyson actually haha but I know the struggle of infertility all too well. I was married previously and we struggled with male factor infertility. We went through 2 IUI's, thousand of dollars and were just about to attempt IVF with ICSI when we decided to divorce for other reasons. I got married again and had my daughter but I NEVER forgot how much of a struggle it all is and I continue to pray for every single couple out there dealing with infertility. There are no stronger people on earth than those who go through not only that but the loss of a child, I simply cannot imagine. Anyway just know I am praying and thinking POSITIVE thoughts for you!!

Jennifer said...

I have follwed your blog for awhile as well but have not said anything til now:)I do believ God gives us the desires of our heart and I believe you will be "blessed" and am hoping and believing with you that it will be this time!!! You are such an inspiration that you would still give God the glory even when circumstances that come your way may leave you feeling otherwise.You are an inspiration to so many!!Whether it is said or not:)Wishing you and your husband the best of luck and just as the Bible says where two or more are gathered, there I am!And we are all gathered and believing for this for you and your family!!!

Anonymous said...

Keep on vegging Princess Alyson! May your dreams come true soon!! I look forward to hearing more about everything and pray that all continues to go well!
Many hugs coming your way!!!
Love,
Brenda

amy (metz) walker said...

Hi sweet friend, I'm glad you are getting plenty of rest! Praying for you and hoping with you!

Brunson Family said...

I am a "lurker" too! I'm a friend of Michelle & Brandon Harmon and have been reading your blog for the past year and a half. What an inspiration you are! You are so open and honest and I know that God is being glorified thru your blog, you'll never know how many lives you have touched thru your words and what an amazing testimony you have living out the verses in James 1:2-4. I am praying for you and believing that God will bless you and your husband with the desires of your heart according to his good and perfect will. Lots of love! Alicia Brunson

Audra said...

I am a non-lurker! :) I've been checking on your blog to see how your bed rest was going and I'm glad to hear you are doing well. Can you imagine being on bed rest for 3 or 4 months! Think we would have to break down and get a TV. :) Love you and we're praying for you today!

Lianna Knight said...

I so agree about all the wondeful people we meet through blogging!!

Praying for you friend :)

Kendra said...

Hi!! Thanks so much for stopping by and saying hello! And thank You VERY MUCH for your prayers...we are grateful!!

I read just a little and will be praying for you and for a BIG miracle soon!!

God bless!
kendra

the ericksons said...

excited to see ya tonight!

Anonymous said...

Hey Alyson! I too am a "lurker" and have enjoyed following you along your journey. Praying for you in the coming weeks!

Stacie
Los Angeles, CA

Ronni said...

I am so sorry that I haven't commented lately, but I have been following your every update. We're praying unceasingly for everything to work out in the most perfect way!!! Can't wait to hear great news :)

EMitchell said...

Hi Alyson, another lurker here. I am a very lucky mom to two kiddos. But my entire adult life I have been touched by infertility. I used to work in adoption and I will never be the same. I cannot imagine the journey so many women travel to become moms. I am praying for you and for baby! I just know that I will read here that you will be welcoming a baby home! Good luck to you, sending lots of prayers your way,

Erin

macphailfamilyx7 said...

Hi Alyson! I like "lurker" much more than "stalker" but either way...I fall under those titles! I am Marty Swifts daughter...your mom did my hair for my wedding a few months before your wedding! I have been following your blog and praying for you since you conceived Johnathan. You will be a great mommy in God's timing! Hoping and praying for you and Justin during the next few weeks!

TN Bakers said...

PTL for a successful transfer Aly! I haven't commented in awhile but have been following your story and praying faithfully. I was running the other day (a rare thing these days)and the song "Healer" came on my ipod. I'm sure you know the song....part of it repeats over and over the line: "nothing is impossible for YOU" meaning God of course, and when I heard that tears came to my eyes and I immediately started praying for you. We are believing that God will make what has been impossible POSSIBLE for you and Justin. All our love, the Bakers

walshpartyofthree said...

Alyson, I am Michelle's friend also who can't stop praying for you and your husband! I think you two are amazing. My prayers will continue for you guys!
~Kelly
P.S. I hope we get to meet some day! :)

kjane said...

Alyson - I am following your posts on your blog and praying for you guys EVERY DAY!! Can't wait for Friday!!!!

Some scripture verses I love are in Proverbs 3:5-6
"Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding.
In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths."


Kary Jane