I have definitely been in a Christmas funk so far this season...
I bet you couldn't tell on this blog with cute the new Christmas look. Even if you drove by my house, you would see lights on the roof line, and think we were for sure in the Christmas spirit. But so far, not even the 24/7 Christmas music has helped me out--very strange if you know me.
I am usually grinning from ear to ear when the first strain comes on and singing right along! I am usually so eager to get down my boxes of decoration and start covering the inside of the house with garlands, lights, stockings, and lots of other adorable things. But those boxes haven't come out yet, and I'm not sure that I have the 'oomph' to drag them out this year. Even the surprise beautiful snowfall didn't nudge me into the mood this morning.
We went to a Christmas event in downtown McKinney the other night, and I teared up many times as we were walking around the square. There were so many families with kids out enjoying themselves, and it just hurt to see them so happy. Just thinking about another Christmas without a baby, still not a mommy, with an empty nursery yet again is just making this season tough.
I'm praying that God would help to comfort my heart. I really am looking forward to going to Denver for a few days at Christmas to be with Justin's side of the family. I know I will be happy and excited when we are there. But I guess I just need to make it through this month, to trust God that maybe 2010 will be my Christmas year.
Guess I just needed to get this off my chest. I'm sure so many of you understand. I'll be back to happier posts soon--I promise!