I'm still working on the posts from the last few weeks. I have a ton of pictures, and I just can't seem to get the blogs done. I will have them done soon, but I wanted to share what we are starting today.
Today is day one of our first IVF cycle. As far as I can tell, it will be about 6 week process. I never dreamed I would get to the point of doing IVF, and so it is kind of strange as I get started. But I am excited, and working on being hopeful about this. It is just so hard after so many let-downs, in many forms, to even hope that this one will be the one, but I'm praying that God give me the hope I need to be positive and encouraged as we go through these next weeks. God has done miracles already, before even starting, and those help me to be positive. The fact that, after all these years of infertility/treatments/etc paying 100%, now as we start IVF we have 100% coverage, and that just floors me. God is so good, His plan is perfect, and is timing is impeccable!
After Jonathan died, I remember reading something about how we view our lives vs how God sees our lives. We see life like we are looking at a great work of art through a straw--all we see is a tiny portion at a time. God sees the whole picture, top to bottom, beginning to end, and is gracious in how He lets us at times, get a bigger glimpse--a bigger straw! Now is one of those times for me when I feel like I'm seeing more of the big picture. God knew that in my "life picture" this was the time for us to start this next step of fertility treatments. Just like someday I know that I will see a bigger glimpse of why everything happened the way it did with Jonathan--why his life was so short, and also how his life reached more that I'll ever know!
So we are off on the next "adventure" and I'm praying that this will be the one that leads us to our greatest dream of being parents! I will update as major steps in this process happen, and I would love your prayers!!