August 12, 2009

We have started...

I'm still working on the posts from the last few weeks. I have a ton of pictures, and I just can't seem to get the blogs done. I will have them done soon, but I wanted to share what we are starting today.

Today is day one of our first IVF cycle. As far as I can tell, it will be about 6 week process. I never dreamed I would get to the point of doing IVF, and so it is kind of strange as I get started. But I am excited, and working on being hopeful about this. It is just so hard after so many let-downs, in many forms, to even hope that this one will be the one, but I'm praying that God give me the hope I need to be positive and encouraged as we go through these next weeks. God has done miracles already, before even starting, and those help me to be positive. The fact that, after all these years of infertility/treatments/etc paying 100%, now as we start IVF we have 100% coverage, and that just floors me. God is so good, His plan is perfect, and is timing is impeccable!

After Jonathan died, I remember reading something about how we view our lives vs how God sees our lives. We see life like we are looking at a great work of art through a straw--all we see is a tiny portion at a time. God sees the whole picture, top to bottom, beginning to end, and is gracious in how He lets us at times, get a bigger glimpse--a bigger straw! Now is one of those times for me when I feel like I'm seeing more of the big picture. God knew that in my "life picture" this was the time for us to start this next step of fertility treatments. Just like someday I know that I will see a bigger glimpse of why everything happened the way it did with Jonathan--why his life was so short, and also how his life reached more that I'll ever know!

So we are off on the next "adventure" and I'm praying that this will be the one that leads us to our greatest dream of being parents! I will update as major steps in this process happen, and I would love your prayers!!

13 comments:

Amanda said...

What an incredible step -- I'm praying for you...

Tena said...

It was so good to see you today. I'm sorry I stayed so long! (But it was nice to not have the interruptions of the boy...)
Anyway, of course we'll be continuing to pray for you as you go along this route. Stay strong!

amy (metz) walker said...

Yay, so happy for this step in your lives...can't wait to walk out this journey with you!

Love you!

Janet said...

Praying for you, of course and looking forward to good news. Keep your chin up and remember God's will!
Sending love from South Africa!

Lianna Knight said...

There are SO many of us starting new cycles together...I wonder if this was all in His plan...to lead us to one another when we were all so sad and in need of His help. Then to bring us together for support during this cycle to finally rejoicing with one another with our successes...He's pretty amazing, isn't He?

erica.jaggears said...

Alyson- Call me or email me if you have any questions about IVF, or want someone to talk to or get some tricks I learned. I had someone to call when I was going through it and it made it easier to be able to share my thoughts with someone ho knew exactly what I was going through. I went through it last year and remember everyday like it was yesterday. It is overwhelming when you look at the the 6 weeks ahead, but when you take 1 day at a time and soak it all in, it will fly by fast! I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers as I know you and your husband deserve this miracle of life!

erica.jaggears@sbcglobal.net

Jodi Sue said...

Praying for you more then usual this next six weeks!
Will you be working this year?
Also, could you email me your mailing address?
Brady and Kenzie have a letter for you.
Thank you soo much for supporting them on their trip! Not only did the trip make a huge impact in their lives but so did the generosity of friends!

Love you,
Jodi

Cristina said...

Your posst gave me goosebumps! We are praying that the next six weeks go by quickly! Love and lots of Prayers.....

Ronni said...

YOu know you can count on us for the prayers! We love you guys!

Audra said...

Wow! I can't imagine the gamut of emotions you guys must be going through. We will have you in your prayers and look forward to updates. Love you.

TN Bakers said...

this is very exciting and wow, 100% coverage is such a blessing. We are praying for you guys.

Suzette said...

I have never heard it explained like that, it really gives perspective of God's plan for our lives! Thanks for sharing that! I am sending up many prayers for you! It is just wonderful hearing your story. God is doing wonderful things in your life! Praying for you and your hubby! :)

Steve and Katie Pittler said...

I am excited beyond belief for you guys!! Thinking of you!! :-) -Katie Pittler