April 15, 2009

Not to be...

Just wanted to say thank you for all your prayers, but like the last couple cycles, this once was not meant to be either. I just don't get it. I stayed home from work today, just to grieve what I had hoped and prayed for, but that is isn't to be. I'm doing my best to stand strong on the word, what I truly believe, but I'm so so sad as well. I'm not quite sure where to go from here. Sometimes I just don't feel like I have the strength to keep going down this path, but at the same time, I can't imagine not continuing down this path. Just pray for me, and for Justin, and we work on making some decisions for the future of our family.

Blogging every day has been a blessing for me, and I'm going to do my best to try to keep it up. But I think I just might take a few days off. Love you all.

20 comments:

Yarnmomma said...

I am truely sorry.. Please know my prayers are for you and justin..

Huge Hugs,

Stephanie

Ronni said...

Oh, my heart just breaks to hear this. We will continue to pray for you!

P.S. You don't have to be strong all the time. We all love you and will be here for you no matter what

Danielle said...

I was hoping for a different outcome. I know that God has a plan for each of us and sometimes we get frustrated, sad, upset, and even angry that we don't understand it. However, know that when the time (HIS TIME) is right it will be perfect. Continually praying for you both. God Bless!!

Suzette said...

I am so sorry as well! Still praying for you and Justin and for God's will!

Riley Kai said...

My heart is heavy for you, but my hopes are still high! I wish I had words of comfort, but know we are all praying for you two!

Monica @ Writer Chic said...

My heart hurts for you today, Alyson. I truly had hoped it would be a day of rejoicing for you and Justin. Peace and love from Nashville...

Marie W said...

Alyson sorry to hear that this month is not your month. Just know that we can never understand the mind of God, but we do know that he desires good for us. I know a few words all the way from Florida cannot ease your heartache, but please know that I am bearing you and Justin up in prayer. May his peace be with you.
Marie

Cristina said...

Oh Alyson, I can't even imagine what you are going through. We will continue to pray for you and Justin and the decisions that you have to make....

Tara said...

I was so disappointed when your mother told me today while I ate part of my lunch with her. I feel for you, Justin, and your families. I am always praying for you, and I am here if you need me!

TN Bakers said...

Sending you a big hug. Crying with you and praying lots.

Brian and Dara said...

I love you dear friend...my heart is in TX with you!

Hugs! -Dara

Sarah said...

:( I'm so sad for you.
No words will help but just know you're in my prayers.

Jess said...

So sorry to hear this month was not a success. I can definately relate after 4 failed months myself...and I know the questions you ask yourself about where to go now. You are mentally and physically exhausted, yet hold on to that hope that maybe the next time is the one and can't bear the thought of at least not trying. And everyone will tell you to just be patient...but know that truly all we can do...keep waiting and believing that things will work out how they are meant to. My husband and I have taken a break from treatments for now and know that IVF is our next step, we just aren't ready for that yet. I pray that you find peace with each new decision you make!

Jodi said...

Allyson, I am so sorry! I know God will bless you and Justin beyond measure!
Praying for you and Justin!

Love you!
Jodi Sue :)

Steve and Katie Pittler said...

I'm praying that at the end of this long road there is a beautiful child that you will love and nurture. Kristen keeps me updated and I was truly saddened. We are thinking of you and we continue to wish you only the best!!

amy (metz) walker said...

love you...and I agree with Ronni, it's okay to not be strong!

Jessica said...

i love you Al...I wish I could be there to give you a hug! i'm praying for you too.

Tena said...

Oh, dear friend, I'm so sorry! I was hoping for better news. You are such a great model for all of us - know that we're continuing to pray for God's will in your behalf.
Love and hugs to you, Justin and Betsy, too!

Robyn Kitchings said...

I'm so sorry Alyson! I will pray for you a Justin and I hope that very soon you will have the sweet baby that you so very much deserve!!

Taryn said...

Alyson, I am still praying. I am so sorry this cycle didn't work. We have been out of town, so I apologize that I'm just now getting to your news.

Just know that God does care and He is always with you.
Taryn