I was thinking about which verse I wanted to have for today, and as I was looking through my Bible, I came across many verses that I had underlined while I was in the hospital on bedrest before Jonathan died. I have a lot of verses in my Bible underlined, but I can tell which ones these are because, since I was lying flat on my side, they are really shaky lines, written in blue. I was amazed at the promises that God gave me, even in the midst of the trial I was going through. He was teaching me about joy, not happiness, but joy throughout whatever was going to come my way.
I Thessalonians 5:16-18 is a special one to me,
"Always be joyful. Keep on praying. Not matter what happens, always be thankful, for this is God's will for you who belong to Christ Jesus."
I didn't know what was just about to happen, and after I did, I didn't know how I was supposed to get through it, but I knew I had to have joy and really make a point to be thankful for what I did have. I don't know if this makes sense, but it does to me in my heart. As much as I wish I could change the things that have happened to me, I am thankful that God has carried me through. I am thankful that my baby didn't have to suffer with health issues usually associated with being born that young--even though I would have been there for every one had he lived. I am thankful for the love of my husband, family, and friends through it all. I choose to let God fill my life with joy--it is the only way I know how to get through each day!