Wow...Cannot believe that this is actually my 100th post!!! Now, if I had kept up this year with my blog like I did last year, I would have been at at least 135 by now, but oh well! =)
I've been trying to figure out what to do for this "occasion"...
...a give-away--but I've never done that, and really don't have anything really good to give away
...a list of 100 things--but I couldn't figure out what 100 things to list (and I probably wouldn't be able to come up with 100 anyways)
...a deep, heartfelt spiritual blog that would inspire all that read it, but being real here, I'm not feeling all that spiritually deep at the moment--just getting by with that foundational faith that He is in control
But none of those feel right at the moment. So I will just tell you what is on my mind right at this moment...
I'm so thankful for those that are supporting me through this time of my life. I never imagined that all of the things that have happened these past 5 years would ever have happened to me. But they have, and I have been so blessed by the love, prayers, friendships, and encouragement that I have gotten from my family, my friends, my blog-world friends, and the other people I'm connected to through those I know. The days that I feel bummed out, and honestly mad about what has happened, I'm reminded that I'm not the only one going through these kinds of tough experiences. I can go on, I will be okay, and someday I will be a mom, even though I don't know when.
I'm so excited for spring break next week. Even though my job is very fun, and honestly, it is pretty easy, I'm still looking forward to a break from the regular day-to-day. I have some fun plans with some girlfriends that I'm looking forward to. I'm also planning on helping my parents unpack and get settled into their new home here in Texas. I'm so excited that they are actually here!! Their moving truck is rolling in tomorrow--so it will be official!
I'm also excited about this coming week because it will mean the start to another round of shots. Please pray for Justin and I over these next 3 weeks or so. As I posted before, our doctor has told us we have 2 more tries this way before moving on to IVF or adoption. Even though that doesn't mean we only have 2 more chances to become parents, honestly, it is a really scary thought to me. For some reason, I'm feeling a bit like a failure. I know I can get pregnant, but for some reason, getting through a whole pregnancy to the end we want--a child alive in our arms--hasn't happened. I know I am not a failure at all--really I do, but having the deadline just really scares me. If we don't get pregnant with these rounds, I'm trusting that God will do some major comforting in my heart as we proceed.
So there it is--my 100th blog. Not too exciting, but exciting in the fact that there have been 100! I hope you have a wonderful weekend, and for those of you teachers starting break--have a great week off!