Justin and I had a great Christmas--we drove up to Tulsa and surprised his parents. A post all about our Christmas week's events with pictures will come later. I'm not really up for posting today.
Got the news this morning--not pregnant. I just don't get it--I know God has promised that we will become parents. It is just so hard being patient. So now we have to wait another month before we can do fertility shots again. We've been trying three months short of 5 years, with countless unsuccessful clomid cycles, 3 fertility shot cycles, 3 miscarriages, and one baby stillborn. I never imagined that the thing I have always wanted most in life, to be a mom, would be this hard and agonizing. I know God has a plan for us--I do trust Him. It is just so hard to be going through all this when it seems that just about everyone around me doesn't have any problems having children. I know that many others are struggling as well, and I would never, ever wish this on anyone, but it still hurts deep inside, even when I am genuinely happy for them.
I promise I will have a much better post soon. I'm not going to let myself be down in the dumps for too long.